HOPE by Ephraim Kaz



    Not long ago I was watching a Snoop Dogg/ Wiz Khalifa movie abt weed
How it gives inspiration
How it sets you in the mood
And makes you think outside the box
Its not today but den we all know most of these niggas smoke that shit
Get inspiration
Enter the studio
And drop some mind blowing shit
Others just smoke it to feel alright
Talk to themselves
I dunno if there's anyone out there like me
I talk within myself
Like I see two of myself talking to each other
Saying things in my head
I do that a lot
Thinking to myself
Most of my inspirations however come from deep feeling of love & music
I dont know for others but for me
I do believe strongly in it
And it keeps me going
I'm trynna get some sleep
And all I see is her
I wake up
And she's there
Sometimes we talk
Sometimes we don't
But most of the time
I keep having conversations with her in my head
Am not like most of my savage friends who'll always say 'fuck love'
Its different for me
I never give up
I hardly do
It may have happened so quickly but then
I wish I could re-live some moments
Not that I regret them
But I just wanna have them one more time
That's how magical those moments were for me
I replay some scenes
And even add a little extra to it
I'mm not the many women kinda guy
But once I got my eyes on someone
For me its like she's the only one
This one girl that in my mind
I have played some 'yet-to-happen-moments'
But still am having difficulties keeping her
One mind says 'just let go'
The other says 'keep on, there's a light at the end of the tunnel'
If I listen to the first me
Am I finally giving up even after my policy to never give up
And If I listen to the second me
Am I wasting my time and giving myself false hope?
That's the kinda fix I am in ryt now
If I do let go
I'll walk around with feelings buried deep within me and all other girls looking like old women right in front of me
And If I dont let go
I'll keep on chasing
With hope flying around
With which am losing faith already
I'm not writing to seek opinion from people
But its just like I said
Love drives me
And I get a great deal of inspiration from it
I tell someone what am facing and they be like
'Nigga fucking move on'
But then they don't understand
The one man who does is like
'Bro go get what you want'
But then at the same damn time am stuck.
She's indescribably beautiful
She's awesome
She's the one thing google cannot answer nor describe
She's not imaginary
She's the feeling I never had in a while
But she's gonna go
And i'm gonna stand there and watch it happen
Cox in the end
No matter what happens
Its her choice
But one thing is for sure
Ima keep on loving
And still pretend like everything is fine
I just hope I'll be there whenever she comes back
I knw she will
She will


Written by Ephraim Kaz

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