ERROR FILE By Bella


Error File

I do not understand, never did and never knew
Why things you never wanted always found their way into your life with amazing directions and arrived not a second more and not a second less
Was it part of the the creator's plan or was it some sort of cosmic creature  who took delight in sending the things that you never planned for at moments you didn't want them.
At birth, I had a programme file I was meant to follow. I think Religion was that file, only two things mattered, My Creator and My happiness if it did not interfere with that of others.
Growing up, I had to combine my programme file with a system file. This file had the sum total of every single thing I ever loved and every single thing I ever hoped or aspired to be. It contained every single detail of my life .  
Presently, I have an error file. I don't think it was meant to be created. I lived by the books, no deviations, too many restrictions, the perfect child and no matter the angle people tried to make me look at it. I always saw Love as an imperfection. It goes on and on about Having this utmost affection for a human being created with flaws. It meant handing over your control and your sanity to a human who could either make you or break you. Some were lucky and got it right but others were forever bleeding souls searching for their soul love. After all my rigid stance on love, it took only the sweet attentions of a mini - god to change my mind. It now made me realise what love is, love is not really the big picture but about the little things that make up the big picture.
Love is when I can't sleep and you forfeit your own sleep and we talk.
Love is when I am bored and you sing songs with your terrible voice and make me laugh.
Love is when we go out to eat and we argue about what to eat but we still end up eating the same food.
Love is looking at you and seeing the best.
I still think that love is an imperfection but I now know that it is my imperfection.
Now I understand, always will and always know
Why things you never knew that you needed always found their way into your life with amazing directions and arrived not a second more and not a second less.
It was part of the creator's plan and not a cosmic creature. He took delight in sending the things that you never knew that you should have planned for at moments when he knew that you needed them.


Written By Bella

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