WHAT CHANGED? By Ephraim Kaz



    Have got something in my chest that I've always wanted to let off. Look, don't you find it funny that those things we promised ourselves when we were little not to ever do, we find ourselves indulging now.

Am sure you remember when your mom was complaining about your neighbor's daughter sleeping around with men, doing runs girl. You told yourself that you will never disappoint your momma, that being a runs girl is disgusting. Well,  I hope you still have such mindset.

Do you remember your street thugs? How they gather in one side smoking and getting high. These niggas are broke and look hungry. They come to you and then ask for #10. You give them hoping they will use it to buy food, rather they go ahead and still buy one more cigarette. And then you ask yourself what they ever gain from smoking crap. You promise yourself you will never touch it. I dunno about you but I do remember.

Now, you've grown up, You're in the Uni. Life is different and more difficult. Have Hunger ever wire you to the extent you start hallucinating. Then you tell yourself that if you were a girl and being a runs girl is a Way to make money, you wouldn't even think twice about it. You start thinking about doing Sugar Mummy. Lol, don't worry you're not alone. Not that these things are good in anyway, it's just that things have changed. We've grown and then we realize life is not easy (forget what Mr. Eazi tells you).

Well, that aside. There was a time my roommate and I smoked almost everyday. It was fun believe me. Holiday came and then we all went home. 2 weeks into the hols, I realized I was missing something. I would go and stay alone and be dragging empty air and blowing it out. I realized I was missing that shit. I called my roommate & told him I was missing it, nigga started laughing. Of course I couldn't smoke that crap at home, I'll be digging my grave. I went back to school and then I was normal again till after a while I started again. One time I got broke like that. I went to brotherly shop, stayed around there hoping I'll bump into a friend that would give me #20 or more so I can buy cigarette. Luck came and I was able to buy four sticks and while I was smoking that shit, I asked myself "what makes me any different from those street thugs from when I was little?" it was funny Buh damn it's true.

Few days ago, I was in a lecturer's office in pharmacy and then on the radio this song by Iceprince was playing, "Gimme that light,  Gimme that kush" dunno if you remember that song. The moment I heard "light" & "kush" I started thinking of the Oris pack I left in my kitchen. I couldn't wait to go home. When I got to my room, I didn't even chill to take off my white shirt. Okay I did unbutton it a little but I left my ash trouser on my waist & rushed straight to the kitchen. Whoooohh, great feeling yeah. I felt at ease.

My oh my. This was what I despised when I was little, even thinking about the smell choked me. Now it's just so different.
Why am I saying this? I know it ain't just me.  There are others including you reading this write-up that got something you promised yourself or your parents not to ever do but now it's just a different story. For me I can't exactly say what changed but ima still ask myself
     What Changed?

Written By Ephraim Kaz

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